Expecting Such a Blessing

We have been blessed with 5 beautiful and children and expecting our sixth in July. This pregnancy has indeed been such a blessing to me because we experienced 2 miscarriages last year. I was devastated and couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. I kept going over and over in my head what I could have done to cause this to happen. I had even considered tubal ligation because the 2nd miscarriage was so intense and I never wanted to experience that again.  It was the love of my husband and the support of very close family and friends in my life that helped me realize that everything happens in divine order and it was nothing I did to cause it or anything I could have done to prevent it. I decided not to have a tubal ligation yet I wasn't using anything to prevent pregnancy other than tracking my ovulation periods and menses. I had decided to count my blessings and focus on raising our children. November I knew I was pregnant but was extremely cautious, so much to the point that I didn't want to tell my husband (but I ended up telling him anyway naturally). I didn't want to say anything until I reached that 12 week mark but the feeling of excitement and joy quickly diminished all my fears. Today I am filled with so much bliss almost at the halfway point while still holding the love for the ones I lost deep in my heart. For all of the mommies that have lost, know that you are not alone and they are still with you. Talking about loosing a pregnancy or a child can be taboo for a lot of people but for me, it was part of my healing process. Count your blessings and know that you are not alone. Peace